Trying to find myself!
On the eve of my foundation course at my univ. I've come to an realization..... and what might that be one may ask... well its that MY LIFE SUCK RIGHT NOW.. and I am not the same person I was four or so years ago. No longer am I content with life, no longer do I like/love the person that I am.
I think that I have come to a full circle.Something has dawned on me.... I am a mere shell of the person I was! I do not want to be like this any more! I am tired of being tired ! I just want to be happy. Is that asking for too much? Or am i just a pessimistic person?
When did this change come about? I have no recollection of this happening. It was so sudden. I guess one day ,I finally woke up an decided to smell the rancid smell of those decaying roses? Instead of there being roses there was a huge pile of human feces!
Ha ha, there I go again! Sometimes my life feels so fickle. Something that can easily be blown in the wind.
Well it is time for me to take charge and make something of my life! I want my life to have substance! I have decided that is if want to be happy, I must first find out who I am.
So here I am! Instead of reading other peoples thought's on blogs, twitter, Facebook, or whatever it may be! I am here o form my own. I am here to find out who I really am.
I AM TRYING TO FIND MYSELF!
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this baby needs prayer . she needs your help !
she is suffering from cancer .
it wouldn’t hurt your page to re-blog this if you care & pray for her to get better.
may God bless you with the best of the best
Pray! <3
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my heart hurts. </3
oh my god.</3
Oh god please bless this soul…
…I cried real tears.. poor baby, prayers sent up in the nameof Jesus.
(Source: neiceey-lynn)
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“It seems as if I do not know myself until I read my thoughts cast down in words. Thoughts conceived sometimes hold no bearing until artfully placed on canvas with coal.” -BahamaBelle
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One day you’ll choke on all those lies you tell
Face to face
Eyes refusing to meet mine
Body bare, decorated in ink.
Your words, dispersed by air..
lingering between us…
Falling short—-
Falling short—-
Always falling short. -
When youre w. yur bestfriend
When a really hot guy walks in the room:
Dancing:
At a concert:
When hearing good news:
when something epic happens:
when you haven’t seen each other in ages:
“rough-housing”:
when the other’s hurt:
on the phone together:
watching sad movies together:
partying together:
reblog if you love your best friend and would do anything for them <3
I LOVE MY BESTFRIEND!!
(Source: youredarrenfreakingpotter)
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Trust Issues
I’ve always been the person who listened to people and gave advice. I really don’t mind listening to people since I enjoy it. I find that there is a soothing quality in being still and just listening. Just to know that people trust me enough to share important aspects their lives and even rather mundane thoughts, makes me feel special. It makes me feel loved. A feeling that I haven’t experienced often in my young life. Therefore, I feel a great sense of value when people trust me.
Tis a shame that I am not able to reciprocate the feeling of trust even to loved ones.I find it very difficult to trust. It leaves me in a vulnerable state. I feel naked in a sense. I ,myself, know where my trust issues stem from but that for another time.
Sometimes I feel an underlying sense of shame when it comes to telling others about my personal life. I rather keep thing bottled up that to discuss the issue at hand because it bring up unwanted memories. I rather carry all the weight on my shoulder and deal with the issues in private.
It’s not that I do not want to trust. I really do! But something always holds me back and makes me defensive. I guess I feel comfortable being on the defense with my guard up. If only I could be able to express myself freely and relive myself of all my burdens. But I feel that it would be an unwanted stress on my loved ones.
Therefore I try to solve my own issues in my head, analyzing and reanalyzing then final over-analyzing, which leaves me with a twisted perspective of my problems. That at times I do not notice that I am going about solving my solution incorrectly but others do. This in fact creates a huge barrier between myself and my loved ones.
This is a huge flaw of mines and I am sorry to all of those I have lied/hurt by not being to trust you the same way you trust in me. I am trying my best to iron this kink of mines out.
Forgive me!
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45 things a girl wants but wont ask
45 things a girl wants for but wont ask for.
1. Touch her waist.
2. Actually talk to her.
3. Share secrets with her.
4. Give her your jacket.
5. Kiss her slowly.Are you remembering this?
6. Hug her.
7. Hold her.
8. Laugh with her.
9. Invite her somewhere.
10. Hangout with her and your friends together.KEEP READING ..
11. Smile with her.
12. Take pictures with her.
13. Pull her onto your lap.
14. When she says she loves you more, deny it. Fight back.
15. When her friends say “I love her more than you”, deny it. Fight back and hug her tight so she can’t get to her friends. It makes her feel loved.Are you thinking of someone?
16. Always hug her and say I love you whenever you see her.
17. Kiss her unexpectedly.
18. Hug her from behind around the waist.
19. Tell her she’s beautiful.
20. Tell her the way you feel about her.One last thing you need to do to show her you actually do mean it.
21. Open doors for her, walk her to her car - it makes her feel protected, plus it never hurts to act like a gentleman.
22. Tell her she’s your everything - only if you mean it.
23. If it seems like there is something wrong, ask her - if she denies something being wrong, it means SHE DOESN’T WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT - so just hug her.24. Make her feel loved.
25. Kiss her in front of OTHER girls you know!WE MIGHT DENY IT BUT WE ACTUALLY LIKE AND KINDA WANT YOU TO TICKLE US ..
26. Don’t lie to her.
27. DON’T cheat on her.
28. Take her ANYWHERE she wants.
29. Text message or call her in the morning and tell her have a good day at school, and how much you miss her.
30. Be there for her whenever she needs you, and even when she doesn’t need you, just be there so she’ll know that she can always count on you.ARE YOU STILL READING THIS? YOU BETTER, BECAUSE IT’S IMPORTANT.
31. Hold her close when she’s cold so she can hold you too.
32. When you are alone hold her close and kiss her.
33. Kiss her on the cheek; (it will give her the hint that you want to kiss her).
34. While in the movies, put your arm around her and then she will automatically put her head on your shoulder, then lean in and tilt her chin up and kiss her lightly.35. Don’t ever tell her to leave even jokingly or act like you’re mad. If she’s upset, comfort her.
REMEMBER ALL THESE THINGS WHEN YOU ARE WITH HER NEXT ..
36. When people diss her, stand up for her.
37. Look deep into her eyes and tell her you love her.
38. Lay down under the stars and put her head on your chest so she can listen to the steady beat of your heart, link your fingers together while you whisper to her as she rests her eyes and listens to you.
39. When walking next to each other grab her hand.
40. When you hug her, hold her in your arms as long as possible.MAKE SURE SHE KNOWS SHES LOVED.
41. Call or text her at night to wish her sweet dreams.
42. Comfort her when she cries and wipe away her tears.
43. Take her for long walks at night.
44. Always remind her how much you love her.
45. Sit on top of her and tell her how much you love her and then bend down to her face and kiss her while you’re sitting on her.You’ll never know when she needs just a little more love
(Source: jennanicolekwan)
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Truth Or Dare...
- YOU: “Truth Or Dare?”
- THEM: “DARE!!”
- YOU: “Ok i dare you to herpaderpderp”
- THEM: “No, im not doing that”
On the outside you’re like:
-__- “Ok”
But on the INSIDE you’re like:
“The FUCK bruh??”
“Why the FUCK would you say DARE if you WASNT GONNA…
Likes
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and here we have some footage of spiderman as a child.
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“If you deny me in front of your friends I will deny you in front of my father”
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Kids are too cute!
LMMFAO @ his...
